Read your blog..changed my mind..
Now only I knew that, you are missing me more than I can imagine..
I am such an inconsiderate person.
No matter, towards you or my dear friends.
I miss you too.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
让“不可能”变为“可能”，可能吗？
和某人谈起他和她之间的事
刚开始虽然不很愿意谈，
但，有个声音告诉她，
为什么要逃避呢？
从信仰的层面上看，
它并不是一件让人可以开怀地谈论的事
因为，爱上他，就得付上比其他人还要多的代价
毕竟，建立基督化家庭，是两个人的事
其实很想告诉他，
如果，你的女朋友，
虽然知道那是“不可能”的，
却还抱着一丝丝的希望，
盼望你和她一样一起相信耶稣，
将来可以建立基督化的家庭，
死后仍然可以在天堂见面，
你会觉得这样会很过分吗？
承诺了的考验，会是什么样的呢？
是给他们信心的考验吗？
还是给他们更“方便”离开对方呢？
每天的祈祷，
希望有奇迹会发生，
希望神掌权
信与不信的，不能和为一体
却还抱着那一顶点的希望
我和她的一样，
希望奇迹会发生
因为神是行神迹的神
而他，是神安排给我的吗？
在想他了。。
刚开始虽然不很愿意谈，
但，有个声音告诉她，
为什么要逃避呢？
从信仰的层面上看，
它并不是一件让人可以开怀地谈论的事
因为，爱上他，就得付上比其他人还要多的代价
毕竟，建立基督化家庭，是两个人的事
其实很想告诉他，
如果，你的女朋友，
虽然知道那是“不可能”的，
却还抱着一丝丝的希望，
盼望你和她一样一起相信耶稣，
将来可以建立基督化的家庭，
死后仍然可以在天堂见面，
你会觉得这样会很过分吗？
承诺了的考验，会是什么样的呢？
是给他们信心的考验吗？
还是给他们更“方便”离开对方呢？
每天的祈祷，
希望有奇迹会发生，
希望神掌权
信与不信的，不能和为一体
却还抱着那一顶点的希望
我和她的一样，
希望奇迹会发生
因为神是行神迹的神
而他，是神安排给我的吗？
在想他了。。
Friday, January 22, 2010
习惯
有人说，爱的最高境界是“习惯”
当你习惯了一个人生活中的习惯，
你就真地爱上他了
真的是这样吗？
爱一个人就要爱并接纳他的优点和缺点
等你真得学会接纳他所有的优点和缺点时，
我想，你可以说已经是习惯了他生活中的习惯
那么，到底是，你爱他，是因为你习惯了他生活中的习惯
还是，你爱他，就要习惯他生活中的习惯呢？
我已经习惯了他的24小时的保护我
我已经习惯了他在睡前在我的额头上给我一个吻
我已经习惯了每次吵架过了，第二天就和好没事
我已经习惯了他因为打机而没空理我
我已经习惯了他晚睡的习惯
我已经习惯了他跟我说他有多想我
我已经习惯了他告诉我生活的小点滴
可是，
我还是不习惯，他用重的语气和我说话（他说话声量大）
我还是不习惯，他在打机时对我发脾气
我还是不习惯，和他吵架后，需要给自己时间安静的习惯
我还是不习惯，接受他的责备/情况的分析
那我到底是爱他还是不爱他呢？
还用问吗？
我爱他，只是还没有完全的爱他的习惯。
不是吗？
当你习惯了一个人生活中的习惯，
你就真地爱上他了
真的是这样吗？
爱一个人就要爱并接纳他的优点和缺点
等你真得学会接纳他所有的优点和缺点时，
我想，你可以说已经是习惯了他生活中的习惯
那么，到底是，你爱他，是因为你习惯了他生活中的习惯
还是，你爱他，就要习惯他生活中的习惯呢？
我已经习惯了他的24小时的保护我
我已经习惯了他在睡前在我的额头上给我一个吻
我已经习惯了每次吵架过了，第二天就和好没事
我已经习惯了他因为打机而没空理我
我已经习惯了他晚睡的习惯
我已经习惯了他跟我说他有多想我
我已经习惯了他告诉我生活的小点滴
可是，
我还是不习惯，他用重的语气和我说话（他说话声量大）
我还是不习惯，他在打机时对我发脾气
我还是不习惯，和他吵架后，需要给自己时间安静的习惯
我还是不习惯，接受他的责备/情况的分析
那我到底是爱他还是不爱他呢？
还用问吗？
我爱他，只是还没有完全的爱他的习惯。
不是吗？
Sunday, January 17, 2010
I love you!
我爱耀扬
I love yeow yang
Aku cinta yeow yang
Ik hou yeow yang
Λατρεύω yeow yang
Ich liebe yeow yang
मैं 耀扬 प्यार
私耀扬愛
ฉัน รัก yeow yang
ehhehehe~
I love yeow yang
Aku cinta yeow yang
Ik hou yeow yang
Λατρεύω yeow yang
Ich liebe yeow yang
मैं 耀扬 प्यार
私耀扬愛
ฉัน รัก yeow yang
ehhehehe~
Friday, January 15, 2010
R.I.P Sandra
About 7 years ago, when I was in Sibu, my grandparents' place.
I received a sad news of a friend of mine,Mao Kai Yuan.
He has passed away in a car accident.
I could not believe it.
I kept calling my other friends to confirm the news.
Even when I received confirmation,
I still prayed,
"God, bring him alive."
Yesterday, I received another sad news from my housemate.
She, Sandra Wong, my ex-housemate passed away in a car accident.
This time, I could not take it as well.
Such a big person, how can they said she has passed away,then she just really gone?
Went to her Facebook.
Saw the comments and greetings her friends gave,
Saw her photos,
I could not not admit that, she has left us.
Until now, I am still waiting, someone will tell me that the news is a prank.
Although we were not close, but we did talk to each other.
Although I have no good feeling towards her, but I felt sad for her leaving.
I am sorry, Sandra, for not treating you better when you were staying with us.
I am sorry, Sandra, for talking about you behind you.
Rest In Peace, Sandra.
I guess, you are now sitting beside Jesus Lord,
enjoying the most happiest moment in Heaven.
May God comfort your family and all those whom you loved and cared.
I received a sad news of a friend of mine,Mao Kai Yuan.
He has passed away in a car accident.
I could not believe it.
I kept calling my other friends to confirm the news.
Even when I received confirmation,
I still prayed,
"God, bring him alive."
Yesterday, I received another sad news from my housemate.
She, Sandra Wong, my ex-housemate passed away in a car accident.
This time, I could not take it as well.
Such a big person, how can they said she has passed away,then she just really gone?
Went to her Facebook.
Saw the comments and greetings her friends gave,
Saw her photos,
I could not not admit that, she has left us.
Until now, I am still waiting, someone will tell me that the news is a prank.
Although we were not close, but we did talk to each other.
Although I have no good feeling towards her, but I felt sad for her leaving.
I am sorry, Sandra, for not treating you better when you were staying with us.
I am sorry, Sandra, for talking about you behind you.
Rest In Peace, Sandra.
I guess, you are now sitting beside Jesus Lord,
enjoying the most happiest moment in Heaven.
May God comfort your family and all those whom you loved and cared.
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Complaint 投诉
我要投诉，王耀扬最近很少陪我！
哼！
I want to complain, that Heng Yeow Yang spent less time to accompany me.
Hmm~!
:(
哼！
I want to complain, that Heng Yeow Yang spent less time to accompany me.
Hmm~!
:(
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
For you, MaMa
12/01/2010
is my dearest MaMa's birthday.
I never know how nice it is to celebrate her birthday until today.
Pass few years, I was not available to celebrate her birthday.
And today, I felt so special that it is MaMa's birthday.
Since I went to KL to further my study,
I felt the gap between us were slowly becoming thinner.
I can tell almost everything to her.
And she is more like a friend for me.
Nevertheless, I love her more than ever.
Because of her, I am in the world.
Because of her, people praised me as a nice girl.
Because of her, I looked not bad. :P
Because of her, I am who I am.
In this special day, I want to thank you, MaMa,
for bringing me up,
for supporting me,
for guiding me,
for feeding me,
for caring me,
and of course, for loving me.
You are the best MaMa in the world.
I love you, MaMa!
Happy Birthday, MaMa
Dear Father Lord, thank You for taking care of MaMa all the time. Thank You for the love You gave us in our relationship. Please continue to take care of her, so that she will be happy, pretty, healthy, safe always. Thank You, Father Lord. On Your name, I prayed. Amen.
is my dearest MaMa's birthday.
I never know how nice it is to celebrate her birthday until today.
Pass few years, I was not available to celebrate her birthday.
And today, I felt so special that it is MaMa's birthday.
Since I went to KL to further my study,
I felt the gap between us were slowly becoming thinner.
I can tell almost everything to her.
And she is more like a friend for me.
Nevertheless, I love her more than ever.
Because of her, I am in the world.
Because of her, people praised me as a nice girl.
Because of her, I looked not bad. :P
Because of her, I am who I am.
In this special day, I want to thank you, MaMa,
for bringing me up,
for supporting me,
for guiding me,
for feeding me,
for caring me,
and of course, for loving me.
You are the best MaMa in the world.
I love you, MaMa!
Happy Birthday, MaMa
Dear Father Lord, thank You for taking care of MaMa all the time. Thank You for the love You gave us in our relationship. Please continue to take care of her, so that she will be happy, pretty, healthy, safe always. Thank You, Father Lord. On Your name, I prayed. Amen.
Sunday, January 10, 2010
受逼迫的人有福了!
最近，常听到的话题，不只是朋友的绯闻，
还有会涉及国家安宁的宗教议题。
十二月三十一日那天，
收到好消息：
知道法庭判决基督徒可以用“阿拉"来称呼上帝。
可是，
意想不到的是
这件事还没有解决。
这几天不断听到
“又有一间教会被攻击了”
让人又气又担忧。
可是，
想起一句话：
“受逼迫的人有福了，因为天国是他们的。”
接着又收到朋友传送的信息，说：
有人攻击凡在车子上张贴于基督教有关的东西的人。
那句话，又提醒了我。
“你在怕什么呢？你在忧虑什么呢？
受逼迫的人有福了，因为天国使他们的。
因为他们的逼迫，让你更确定，天国是你的了。”
身为神的子民，
身为神的女儿，
我们更应当坚强起来。
因为，
就像当年，神让摩西带领以色列人出埃及一样，
神多次让法老（埃及王）不心软。
还增加了以色列人的工作量。
神因此就降灾祸在埃及人身上。
同样的，
今天，
马来西亚的基督徒，受逼迫，被欺负。
神一样的，一直在眷顾我们。
或许，他要我们透过这件事，
感动那些不信者的心。
不要问“上帝，你在哪里？”
只求“阿爸父，怜悯他们，因他们所作的，他们不知道。”
阿爸父，求你赐我怜悯的心，不要因为他们的所作所为而生气。
也求你赐我爱心，因为你教导我要爱仇敌。
求你怜悯他们，因为他们所作的，他们不知道。
也求你感动我身边还未接受你做他们生命主宰的亲戚朋友们。
父，求你帮助相关人士在这件事上，有良好的处理方式。
赐他们聪明智慧，晓得如何妥善地解决这件事，
让人民都能在安宁的国家生活。
一切的一切，还是要交拖在父你的手中。
一切照你的旨意行。
奉主名求的。
阿们！
还有会涉及国家安宁的宗教议题。
十二月三十一日那天，
收到好消息：
知道法庭判决基督徒可以用“阿拉"来称呼上帝。
可是，
意想不到的是
这件事还没有解决。
这几天不断听到
“又有一间教会被攻击了”
让人又气又担忧。
可是，
想起一句话：
“受逼迫的人有福了，因为天国是他们的。”
接着又收到朋友传送的信息，说：
有人攻击凡在车子上张贴于基督教有关的东西的人。
那句话，又提醒了我。
“你在怕什么呢？你在忧虑什么呢？
受逼迫的人有福了，因为天国使他们的。
因为他们的逼迫，让你更确定，天国是你的了。”
身为神的子民，
身为神的女儿，
我们更应当坚强起来。
因为，
就像当年，神让摩西带领以色列人出埃及一样，
神多次让法老（埃及王）不心软。
还增加了以色列人的工作量。
神因此就降灾祸在埃及人身上。
同样的，
今天，
马来西亚的基督徒，受逼迫，被欺负。
神一样的，一直在眷顾我们。
或许，他要我们透过这件事，
感动那些不信者的心。
不要问“上帝，你在哪里？”
只求“阿爸父，怜悯他们，因他们所作的，他们不知道。”
阿爸父，求你赐我怜悯的心，不要因为他们的所作所为而生气。
也求你赐我爱心，因为你教导我要爱仇敌。
求你怜悯他们，因为他们所作的，他们不知道。
也求你感动我身边还未接受你做他们生命主宰的亲戚朋友们。
父，求你帮助相关人士在这件事上，有良好的处理方式。
赐他们聪明智慧，晓得如何妥善地解决这件事，
让人民都能在安宁的国家生活。
一切的一切，还是要交拖在父你的手中。
一切照你的旨意行。
奉主名求的。
阿们！
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
:)
既然收在箱子里没用，就干脆给其他人用。
可是，在打开那藏在衣橱上至少有两年的箱子，
才发现原来曾经作出那么潇洒的承诺。
在重看他写的信和我写的日记事，对写信者一点感觉也没有，
可是我的脑袋却浮现着“他”的样子。
仿佛是“他”写给我的。
这个感觉到底是对还是错的呢？
到底，这代表着什么呢？
…
反正，都已成过去了，成历史了。
已经不该想太多了。
想珍惜现在。
因为已经没有遗憾了。
:)
Monday, January 4, 2010
Missing
Both of you went back to school already.
I felt so empty.
I miss the moment we teasing each other as "Aminah", "Maria" etc.
I miss the moment we playing "extreme spot the differences" together.
I miss the moment we fighting for the middle seat of the car,
just to avoid being asked to open the gate.
I miss the moment we counting who is the one washing dishes "tonight".
p/s: I asked Lucas who are they? He can recognize you two correctly o~ hehe..
Previously, I am the one leaving you two.
I asked if you will miss me or not.
You said "NO".
But, I am sure you are missing me now. ^^
Maybe you miss Lucas more than me. :(
Still, I miss you.
Sooner, after one month we will be meeting up,
Again, we shall call each other "Aminah", "Maria", "Aweenah" etc.
Again, we shall play "extreme spot the differences" game.
Again, we shall fight for inner seat.
Again, we shall count who will be the dishes washer of the night.
I miss you, ah Wee and ah Li.
Ah Gor, I miss you too.
Miss your Mr. Bean joke.
Miss your funny sound.
Miss your Keh Poh reaction.
Don't miss your girl only lah~
=.=
Time past fast.
One more month.
I have one more month to play and relax.
I have one more month to spend with parents.
I felt so empty.
I miss the moment we teasing each other as "Aminah", "Maria" etc.
I miss the moment we playing "extreme spot the differences" together.
I miss the moment we fighting for the middle seat of the car,
just to avoid being asked to open the gate.
I miss the moment we counting who is the one washing dishes "tonight".
p/s: I asked Lucas who are they? He can recognize you two correctly o~ hehe..
Previously, I am the one leaving you two.
I asked if you will miss me or not.
You said "NO".
But, I am sure you are missing me now. ^^
Maybe you miss Lucas more than me. :(
Still, I miss you.
Sooner, after one month we will be meeting up,
Again, we shall call each other "Aminah", "Maria", "Aweenah" etc.
Again, we shall play "extreme spot the differences" game.
Again, we shall fight for inner seat.
Again, we shall count who will be the dishes washer of the night.
I miss you, ah Wee and ah Li.
Ah Gor, I miss you too.
Miss your Mr. Bean joke.
Miss your funny sound.
Miss your Keh Poh reaction.
Don't miss your girl only lah~
=.=
Time past fast.
One more month.
I have one more month to play and relax.
I have one more month to spend with parents.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
pre-birthday-celebration for wee
Today is family day.
We went shopping together.
Helped mama with her works together.
Slept together.
Ate steamboard together.
We pre-celebrated my sister's 21st birthday at 快可利刷刷锅 without a cake.
After dinner, we went to Boulevard shopping.
My daddy is addicted to the 100 plus promotion.
It has been two days we went there just to buy 100 plus.
Cheap cheap enough~
Then we three sisters went shop for clothes.
It was nice moment to be.
But, there was always someone there realizing smelly gas.
-.-
It was a fun moment though.
Here are some pictures:
I love my family. Suddenly don't feel like leaving this lovely home.
We went shopping together.
Helped mama with her works together.
Slept together.
Ate steamboard together.
We pre-celebrated my sister's 21st birthday at 快可利刷刷锅 without a cake.
After dinner, we went to Boulevard shopping.
My daddy is addicted to the 100 plus promotion.
It has been two days we went there just to buy 100 plus.
Cheap cheap enough~
Then we three sisters went shop for clothes.
It was nice moment to be.
But, there was always someone there realizing smelly gas.
-.-
It was a fun moment though.
Here are some pictures:
I love my family. Suddenly don't feel like leaving this lovely home.
Friday, January 1, 2010
New year New prospect
Here comes Year 2010 which will be another challenging year for me.
After seven months from now, I will be officially graduated, hopefully~
It is MY year. It will be MY year. So, I will let it be MY year.
Weee~:)
Year 2009 was a grateful year.
Thanks God for bringing me go through everything that I have experienced.
Thanks God for sending so many angels to me, to cheer me,protect me,care me and love me etc.
Thanks God I have nothing less.
Thanks God I have GAINED WEIGHT. :)
The toughest moment for my study, which was regarding Thesis Research has passed smoothly.
The happiest moment, which were hanging out with friends have passed as well.
The saddest moments, which were indescribable,uncountable have passed without regrets.
Year 2009 was an interesting year
with joy,sorrow,nervous,worry,fun etc.
Year 2010 will be a brand new year.
Family
I would like to thank God for bringing me to this family.
I would like to have more time spending with them,especially Daddy Mummy.
Thanks God that He arranged Imperial Hotel and Sincere Center rejected my application.
Now I have more time spend with them until CNY.
Although it has been long time that I didn't come back, we still have a very close relationship.
Now,even closer.
Thanks God for taking care of my family and for the love that you "watering" in our relationship.
I will treasure them more,sayang them more.
Study
Thanks God, it is going to be the last semester for me.
Thanks God, for sending YY to "force" me for study, and my results were getting better.
No matter how easy or tough the coming semester will be, I will still try my best to get better result.
I MUST be totally FREE from exam and assignment starting from July 2010.
Faith
Sorry Lord, that I have disappointing you with my "sudden hot sudden cold" heart towards YOU.
In new year, I must "shi feng" as long as I can breath.
I want to turn "religion" to "faith".
Friendship
I have nothing much to wish for friendship.
I want to make more friends.
But I don't want to lose any friends.
I just want to keep in touch my dear friends
and treasure them, be their support whenever they need someone.
Love Relationship
It is the most difficult course in life (I guess).
Since 5th of Dec 2009, we have separated.
I don't know when will be our next meeting.
How our fate will be? I have no guarantee that we will be together forever.
But, I want us to be together as long as we love each other.
So, I will never give up and we will be working very hard to work it out.
Right,dear?
OK, that's all I have, I think.
Oh ya~And I wish I will update my blog more often.
So that my dear, and my dear friends who want to know about latest me will get updated. :) Wish me luck!
And wish all of you all the best.
May this year will fill your life with
HAPPINESS,
HEALTHY,
WEALTHY,
LAUGHTER,
SWEET MEMORY.
Happy New Year 2010!
After seven months from now, I will be officially graduated, hopefully~
It is MY year. It will be MY year. So, I will let it be MY year.
Weee~:)
Year 2009 was a grateful year.
Thanks God for bringing me go through everything that I have experienced.
Thanks God for sending so many angels to me, to cheer me,protect me,care me and love me etc.
Thanks God I have nothing less.
Thanks God I have GAINED WEIGHT. :)
The toughest moment for my study, which was regarding Thesis Research has passed smoothly.
The happiest moment, which were hanging out with friends have passed as well.
The saddest moments, which were indescribable,uncountable have passed without regrets.
Year 2009 was an interesting year
with joy,sorrow,nervous,worry,fun etc.
Year 2010 will be a brand new year.
Family
I would like to thank God for bringing me to this family.
I would like to have more time spending with them,especially Daddy Mummy.
Thanks God that He arranged Imperial Hotel and Sincere Center rejected my application.
Now I have more time spend with them until CNY.
Although it has been long time that I didn't come back, we still have a very close relationship.
Now,even closer.
Thanks God for taking care of my family and for the love that you "watering" in our relationship.
I will treasure them more,sayang them more.
Study
Thanks God, it is going to be the last semester for me.
Thanks God, for sending YY to "force" me for study, and my results were getting better.
No matter how easy or tough the coming semester will be, I will still try my best to get better result.
I MUST be totally FREE from exam and assignment starting from July 2010.
Faith
Sorry Lord, that I have disappointing you with my "sudden hot sudden cold" heart towards YOU.
In new year, I must "shi feng" as long as I can breath.
I want to turn "religion" to "faith".
Friendship
I have nothing much to wish for friendship.
I want to make more friends.
But I don't want to lose any friends.
I just want to keep in touch my dear friends
and treasure them, be their support whenever they need someone.
Love Relationship
It is the most difficult course in life (I guess).
Since 5th of Dec 2009, we have separated.
I don't know when will be our next meeting.
How our fate will be? I have no guarantee that we will be together forever.
But, I want us to be together as long as we love each other.
So, I will never give up and we will be working very hard to work it out.
Right,dear?
OK, that's all I have, I think.
Oh ya~And I wish I will update my blog more often.
So that my dear, and my dear friends who want to know about latest me will get updated. :) Wish me luck!
And wish all of you all the best.
May this year will fill your life with
HAPPINESS,
HEALTHY,
WEALTHY,
LAUGHTER,
SWEET MEMORY.
Happy New Year 2010!
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