Sunday, November 20, 2011

19.11.2011

Why am I so poor in EQ?

A lot of negative feelings
but
I just can't control myself
and speak it out
Hurting people around

But (defensively)
It is not totally my problem
The persons who created it
did not realize how did that affect me

Saying something bad to people
is my BAD
Making me saying something bad to you
is your BAD

Why don't WE think about it
stand on other people's shoes?

I can understand how my BAD affected you
BUT
CAN YOU?
understand how your BAD affected me?

I am sorry for doing that BAD to you
I apologize because I understand how it affected you
Will you apologize
after you realize how your BAD affected me?

Do understand
sentences like
"I am sorry"
"It is OK"
is important to ME
which may not be important to you

Ya, go ahead with my own EMO state
HATE MYSELF!!!!

Saturday, July 30, 2011

29-07-2011 The Proposal - APPROVED

A significant day.

Early morning, woke up so excited
because I was thinking "can't wait for tonight to come, want to see my friend's face of happiness"
everything is normal
He dressed up as usual
I dressed up as usual

Busy the whole day at work
Non-stop running up and down
And suspected nothing
(while he has actually taken a day leave)

Went off from work on time
Luckily my boss lady didn't ask me to do something urgent
Reach home around 7pm, earliest of the year

He was arguing to wear jeans or suit trousers
After bath, the so-called main character called and said they were reaching
He even helped to dry my hair

When both of us got into the car (yes, we were following the so-called main character's car due to His license expired, that's what I thought)
The "main character" was not wearing as formal as him
I felt so uncomfortable
because I was wearing more formal than the "main character"

LONG WAY UP TO THE HILLS
Traffic Jam for 2 hours

When we were there, was around 10pm already
I still acted very carefully to avoid the "female main character" suspected anything
We sat down, ordered, ate
and then, He whispered to me "they are here already, let's go to toilet"
But he brought me to somewhere else
I was thinking "Ohya, we shall get prepared"

When at staircase, a familiar voice sounded
Singing "MARRY you"

Everyone were there
Everyone I knew were there
Everyone we knew were there
Everyone we knew were there with touch lights
Everyone we knew were there with touch lights and with a letter hanged on their neck

The first thing I asked "where is Xiao Thian (the supposed main character)"

The rest, I shall let the video speaks:





Thank you, friends!

HOUSE 32:
Xiao Thian, Joyce, Yongjie, Joana and partners (I thought it was just us. :P)
It was so great to have you girls here, witness my happiness :)
And never left out Shari, Agnes and Kexin. Thank you for the wishes.

Uni Friends:
Shu Yi, Mia, Edwin
Thanks for the song. Love your voice and the accompaniment.
Remember to sing during my wed ya..:P

Klang besties:
Roberta & Esther
*still looking for nicer photo*

YY Gang:
Hwai Li, Swee Boon, Pek Wah
Thank you for coming and made this happened. :)

Last but not least,
The committees and partners
Thank you for all the efforts though you are bad of teaching YY to bluff me.


I am here to announce:

YESSS....I DO!

Saturday, July 2, 2011

已经够了~


一个人,不知道向谁说好。。

我向来就是没有大志的人
人家给我什么
再怎么不喜欢
都不会说出口

如果我觉得自己不值得
我会向其他人诉苦
但我不会针对他,告诉他
因为我胆小
因为我没勇气
因为我没那个本事

为那件事,争论了太多了
够了
也该做个决定了

放弃了
也该放手了

在这样下去
不值得

我的担心
谁懂?
我的心情
谁了解?

已经够了~



Monday, June 27, 2011

Greedy

What a GREEDY girl Sze Yii is!!!
Having Permanent Job as HR
Having Partime Job as Piano Teacher
Having two Income Monthly
Earning more Money than I expected
But, there is downside of it
Friends:
Only available on Sunday,preferably
Cannot join them for more vacation
Family:
Can't take off to go back
Except for Yamaha School Holiday
Dating:
Spending lesser time with Dearest one
Make his Time following my Time
Tired fetching me Here and There
Money:
Come come!
Health:
Go Go a little a little
Energy:
Low Battery
Self-actualization:
FUN! and Satisfying!!
HOW??HOW??HOW??
What should I DOOOO?????

Saturday, March 26, 2011

最重要的决定



看过康熙来了的这一集,真的很感动!

祝福范范和黑人~



Tuesday, January 4, 2011

040111

这样逼他,会不会太过分呢?
但是,不逼他,我又不想看到他现在这个情况。

父啊!
逼他,是对的吗?
不逼他,是你应许的吗?

心疼,讨厌,他现在这个样子
又不想看到,逼他后的样子
因为也是会心疼
求您教我们做至亲的可以为他做什么?

父啊!
如果,这不是你所应许的,
求你挪去他现在所存有的感情。

父啊!
他或许不会听你的,
但是,我不想承认,或许,你会说,是我不想面对,
他现在最在乎的
求您依你的旨意行
也求您早早让他知道什么是您应许的

好吗?