truth??

What is the truth i hv in myself? i reli dunno..or issit me the one that refuse to face the truth? why everyone keep on telling me the same thing "u refused to face the truth..."?i dunno what is the truth...i dunno how to face it if it is a truth...haiya...i reli dunno...everything is very confusing for me...or...it is just me that make it complicated?or...i reli refused to face it if it is a truth?

*blur*...................

解释=掩饰？

最近
在朋友圈子中
传出一个非常“废”的绯闻
怎样解释都好
大家都认为这是一个事实
那
解释已经无效了
解释就等于掩饰
不解释又代表默认
唉~
现在的人类
想象力真丰富哦

在同个时间
一个她发现了
一个值得依靠的肩膀
可是
就是不敢去拥有
原因，就只有一个
不肯定feeling
她想
等肯定了feeling
才作决定
应该不迟吧

她
怕的是
去伤害
和
被伤害

一个不肯定
一个怕伤害
真的可以
让一个人
不敢恋爱？

看到身边的朋友
一个一个
为感情事
流泪
受折磨
心里都酸了

爱情
就那么难以捉摸吗？
曾经拥有
真的这么让人渴望吗？

朋友们，
坚强点
爱情
不是世界上
唯一可拥有的东西
还有更多的东西
等待你去拥有

feeling in dis moment??

feeling....

mixed....

down....

empty....

missing....

hoping....

waiting....

homesick....

scare....

grateful....

thankful....

Haiz~~

2nd return trip to Tras

Well,it was more fun than b4...maybe it is coz of no activity carried out bah~and i went back just to visit them and spent time with them...it improved my relationship with the family...

i guess,some of u dunno wat am i talking abt,right?Tras, is a Chinese Village in Raub,Pahang...in April,i'd joined Community Outreach of my Uni to a kampung which edu level is not as high as in city...we went there to do some activities,to educate the children and improve their relationship with their parents...it was a nice experience...we were then adopted by a family (one or two undergraduate students per family)...we stayed there for a week...

My adopted family

Activities and Group photos

in kindergarten

in secondary sch (edu fare)


Seminar

Orang Asli Visitation

River

Celebration for Jia Ying's 21st Bday

Big Family of Tras

Time to say Good Bye

we got return trip on july


And dis time,i went back without any fren of COS (community outreach society)...but thanks God for arranging a fren of mine to accompany me go...at first,i was regret to promise to go...coz when we were waiting for the central pahang,it was raining heavily and got lots of ppl going...and accidentally,i fall down n sat on floor...sienz~those malay ppl kept on pushing pushing n IT WAS RAINING summore...please lah...haiz~then we all became "chicken in the soup"...hahaha

for more detail,view my fren's blog...Yeow Yang...:P

What i want to say is,i managed to know jia yi's gu1 jeh1,gu1 zhang4,xiao3 shu4 n family... they treated me just like their family...they invited me to celebrate CNY with them if i dun manage to go back to miri...it was fun to be with them coz they are reli funny and talkative ppl...hv lots of fun to be with them...popo also as humour as them...when yeow yang n i were talking abt a joke outside the house,popo heard our laughter,then she asked yeow yang,"u picked up a note huh??" both of us were blur...tot that popo fitnah us for picking up a note without returning it to them...then only we knew that popo meant why were we so happy till laugh out loud?hehehehe~~cute cute de popo...

Eye on Malaysia

Finally,went to Eye on Malaysia last sat...but not as fun as i thought...a minute b4,i was so excited to go...the next minute,the time i was in gondola,i was regret to be there...it was so scary...now only i realized that i got light acrophobia (fear of height)...i not dare to move around or look down...i not even dare to breath,hv to breath softly,lightly...lolz~~

Frontal plane of Eye on Malaysia

Sagittal plane of Eye on Malaysia

Horizontal plane of Eye on Malaysia

Far view of Eye on Malaysia

Eye on Malaysia in water

Gondola

21st birthday

Well...i had join the 20+ group...it was so special..my housemates and my frens gave me a special surprise...actually,i knew that they're planning smth (all is yy's fault,talked secretly with others in front of me,but refused to tell me...obviously,got ghost lah...)

Ok!let the video tells u the story...^^



It was a touching scene,but i din cry lah...:P
shooting time..i was just like a bride...Hahaha...

Thanks,guys for putting so much effort just to make my 21st bday special...it's so wonderful...let's see how they came out with that beautiful scene...

Again,thanks,guys...thanks for the best wishes given...

Specially,thanks to daddy mummy for bringing me up for 20 years...putting so much time,effort,money,spirit,patience to teach me so that i become a useful person...i guess it is tough to bring me up,right?hehehe~~i promise i will be honour to both of u as this is wat God want me to do...

Thanks God for the 20 years' blessing...for giving me the best parents and friends,bringing me to this world...can i ask for more in future?hehe~my 21st year life have started..took the golden key ady...so it is time to live a brand new life...to be youth or maybe adult..^^

Once again,thanks to all from blessed birthday girl...Love ya...

define friendship

feeling down...wondering about friendship...
what is friendship actually???what is the definition of friendship?
why?when u tried to after me,u can be so close to me...
when i rejected to be ur gf,u totally ignoring me..
at first,i tot u r different than some other ppl...
at least,in u,i felt that "friend is keeping in touch"...
but,since i rejected u,u dun wan to friend me,escaping me,avoiding me...
who am i to u actually?
between us,there is nth besides couple ady?
ur impression for me is totally damaged...
i used my heart to friend u,but what u gave?
should i hate u?i should NOT!!
i'll forgive u,but pls dun do dis to another ppl...
UNFAIR!


ppl,if u r the same as the "u" i mentioned,stay away from me,
i dun wan to friend u too...

Forgive and Forget

Can't wait for my posting abt my 21st bday leh...sorry ya..i haven't finish collecting my photos yet...wait patiently ya...it is worth to wait~^^

Today,i want to share what I'd learned in my daily devotion...

I read Genesis 45- 47. It was about Joseph who was sold by his brothers to Egypt. Then, about 13 years later, he became the ruler of all Egypt. The day he met with his youngest brother, Benjamin and he knew how much his brothers were regret for what they'd done with him(for those who don't know,Joseph's brothers did not recognize him as they did not meet for quite long time), he'd forgiven his brothers who sold him to Egypt.

5 And now, do not be distressed

and do not be angry with yourselves
for selling me here,
because it was to save lives that
God sent me ahead of you.
7 But God sent me ahead of you
to preserve for your remnant on earth
and to save your lives by a great deliverance.

Can you be that big square and willing to forgive those who's hurt you before?Forgiving is a big lesson in our whole life. I am learning. Learn to "forgive and forget". I want to be like Joseph. I learn to think in the different perspective when someone hurt me. I hope you'll,too.

Joseph's secret of success to forgive his brothers:-

1. It is God's arrangement, it is not occasional
2. It is God that put me through the mill in order to build better personality in me
3. There is a mission from God for me to accomplish (Genesis 45:7)

Dear those who think he/she hurt me before,

And now, do not be distressed and
do not be angry with yourselves for hurting me before.
I forgive you. I'll forgive and forget.