26.05.2012

This month, don't know how many times already, this kind of situations kept happened.

I admit that there were some occasions are due to my faulty. But, don't you think you are in fault too? for certain occasions?

Every time things happened, you knew are in fault, but never say sorry to me. What I need just a "sorry" very simple and easy word, why is it so difficult when come to you? Do you feel sorry at the first place?

I am scared of you, seriously. It is "FEAR" that comes to me when I know that, that situation is going to happen.

I tried my best to be perfect and match with your requirement. But, it seems like not enough. And, ya...

Do you know there is a time that I cried crazily because of you? Do you feel the heart pain inside me?

19.11.2011

Why am I so poor in EQ?

A lot of negative feelings

but

I just can't control myself

and speak it out

Hurting people around

But (defensively)

It is not totally my problem

The persons who created it

did not realize how did that affect me

Saying something bad to people

is my BAD

Making me saying something bad to you

is your BAD

Why don't WE think about it

stand on other people's shoes?

I can understand how my BAD affected you

BUT

CAN YOU?

understand how your BAD affected me?

I am sorry for doing that BAD to you

I apologize because I understand how it affected you

Will you apologize

after you realize how your BAD affected me?

Do understand

sentences like

"I am sorry"

"It is OK"

is important to ME

which may not be important to you

Ya, go ahead with my own EMO state

HATE MYSELF!!!!

29-07-2011 The Proposal - APPROVED

A significant day.

Early morning, woke up so excited

because I was thinking "can't wait for tonight to come, want to see my friend's face of happiness"

everything is normal

He dressed up as usual

I dressed up as usual

Busy the whole day at work

Non-stop running up and down

And suspected nothing

(while he has actually taken a day leave)

Went off from work on time

Luckily my boss lady didn't ask me to do something urgent

Reach home around 7pm, earliest of the year

He was arguing to wear jeans or suit trousers

After bath, the so-called main character called and said they were reaching

He even helped to dry my hair

When both of us got into the car (yes, we were following the so-called main character's car due to His license expired, that's what I thought)

The "main character" was not wearing as formal as him

I felt so uncomfortable

because I was wearing more formal than the "main character"

LONG WAY UP TO THE HILLS

Traffic Jam for 2 hours

When we were there, was around 10pm already

I still acted very carefully to avoid the "female main character" suspected anything

We sat down, ordered, ate

and then, He whispered to me "they are here already, let's go to toilet"

But he brought me to somewhere else

I was thinking "Ohya, we shall get prepared"

When at staircase, a familiar voice sounded

Singing "MARRY you"

Everyone were there

Everyone I knew were there

Everyone we knew were there

Everyone we knew were there with touch lights

Everyone we knew were there with touch lights and with a letter hanged on their neck

The first thing I asked "where is Xiao Thian (the supposed main character)"

The rest, I shall let the video speaks:

Thank you, friends!

HOUSE 32:

Xiao Thian, Joyce, Yongjie, Joana and partners (I thought it was just us. :P)

It was so great to have you girls here, witness my happiness :)

And never left out Shari, Agnes and Kexin. Thank you for the wishes.

Uni Friends:

Shu Yi, Mia, Edwin

Thanks for the song. Love your voice and the accompaniment.

Remember to sing during my wed ya..:P

Klang besties:

Roberta & Esther

*still looking for nicer photo*

YY Gang:

Hwai Li, Swee Boon, Pek Wah

Thank you for coming and made this happened. :)

Last but not least,

The committees and partners

Thank you for all the efforts though you are bad of teaching YY to bluff me.

I am here to announce:

YESSS....I DO!

已经够了~

一个人，不知道向谁说好。。

我向来就是没有大志的人

人家给我什么

再怎么不喜欢

都不会说出口

如果我觉得自己不值得

我会向其他人诉苦

但我不会针对他，告诉他

因为我胆小

因为我没勇气

因为我没那个本事

为那件事，争论了太多了

够了

也该做个决定了

放弃了

也该放手了

在这样下去

不值得

我的担心

谁懂？

我的心情

谁了解？

已经够了~

Greedy

What a GREEDY girl Sze Yii is!!!

Having Permanent Job as HR

Having Partime Job as Piano Teacher

Having two Income Monthly

Earning more Money than I expected

But, there is downside of it

Friends:

Only available on Sunday,preferably

Cannot join them for more vacation

Family:

Can't take off to go back

Except for Yamaha School Holiday

Dating:

Spending lesser time with Dearest one

Make his Time following my Time

Tired fetching me Here and There

Money:

Come come!

Health:

Go Go a little a little

Energy:

Low Battery

Self-actualization:

FUN! and Satisfying!!

HOW??HOW??HOW??

What should I DOOOO?????

最重要的决定

看过康熙来了的这一集，真的很感动！

祝福范范和黑人～

040111

这样逼他，会不会太过分呢？

但是，不逼他，我又不想看到他现在这个情况。

父啊！

逼他，是对的吗？

不逼他，是你应许的吗？

心疼，讨厌，他现在这个样子

又不想看到，逼他后的样子

因为也是会心疼

求您教我们做至亲的可以为他做什么？

父啊！

如果，这不是你所应许的，

求你挪去他现在所存有的感情。

父啊！

他或许不会听你的，

但是，我不想承认，或许，你会说，是我不想面对，

他现在最在乎的

求您依你的旨意行

也求您早早让他知道什么是您应许的

好吗？